Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Charity

Recently I've been feeling more and more ungrateful. I've been thinking about doing something that matters and helps people. So I have decided to throw a charity event. The only problem is, what event should I do..... Help please.

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

RBC basketball

During high school i would never want to go to the basketball games, i would go to some of the football games but not the basketball games. Its not like my school was terrible we were ranked pretty high in the nationals. When i got to college the peer pressure was real. Every one kept talking about how good the team was. At first i was like okay okay shut up i don't care. But then one day my friends forced me to go to a game with them. When i got there i was just bitter and angry. I did not want to be there. Everyone was all loud and rowdy, which seemed to piss me off even more. But then a miracle happened. i actually payed attention to the game and it wasn't that bad. As soon as i noticed i was cheering and being rowdy just like everyone else. I actually enjoyed myself, and even though every kept telling me how good we are i was shocked myself. Go statesman!

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Just Find the Love

Have you ever realized how scary it is to love someone? Loving someone is you giving them power. The power to basically control you like robot. Not always physically but emotionally. If your love wants to have a good day and to feel happy and joyful, he or she will do so. But its just that easy for them to ruin your day and make you feel like crap. Many hearts break everyday due to the insensitivity of a loved one. So why would anyone ever allow someone to have to much power over them? It never seems worth it until the one comes along. The one that changes your perspective about everything you ever thought you knew in this world. The one who makes the darkest days brighter than the sun. So many seem to rush into what they think is love, then end up missing their true soul mate. then those end up to be the old grumpy people who don't believe in love. It exists you just have to find it and not waste your time with people who put you down more then they pick you up.

This isnt me

I lost my self. This isn't me. growing up I was the sweetest girl you can ever be,  always hyper and happy. Any where my dad would go it was almost guaranteed that I was right by his side. Shadowing him, making sure I was just as perfect as I thought he was.  I had so much excitement, I wanted to do anything and everything. Sadly that girl is long gone. The real world has taken her away. I have been exposed to the flaws of the world and everyone I trusted has let me down including my own dad, leaving me with the expectation that no matter what I do I would always be let down so why try? Why go out of my way to please people? What's the purpose of sharing my emotions or feeling with others if they are going to screw you over? In this world we are born alone and we all die alone. When I hurt no one is going to feel the pain but me. This place has changed me into a pretty selfish person. A dark negative person. Maybe this has always been me, and it just took a lot of disappointment for me to find myself.

Monday, April 7, 2014

zmoney + clubbing = fail.

For some reason clubbing just never works out for me. Every time i have gone or have attempted to go something just has to go wrong. My last clubbing experience just might be my last clubbing experience for a while.
The night started just like any other night. Me and my girls all got ready in our cute little outfits, did our hair and makeup and got together. We started getting drunk off the excitement in the air and started chit-chatting before we left. We started discussing how we have to have a good night unlike the night before which started in a brawl and ended with disappointment because the club was just so terrible. The club we were attending that night was supposed to be a lot better than the previous one. We were all pumped and ready to make out way up to Richmond to start what was supposed to be a good night. We arrived at the club in one safe and sound. We enter the club just to realize it was more ratchet than we expected it to be but it was still tolerable. I ran into a few people i much rather avoid and a lot of the guys were very flirty... in an aggressive and creepy way. But still the night was going better than any of my other clubbing experience. We leave the club around 2. Everyone was happy because nothing went terribly wrong... Yet. We start driving back home. We get on the highway when the driver says "Oh shit my cars slowing down, its out of gas"...  Why didn't she say anything earlier so we can stop and get gas.. Zmoney will never, ever know. But the point is it was 2 AM and our car is stopped in the middle of the night. We tried everything we could think of to just be able to go home. All the cabs that we called ended up never showing up, all the tow trucks costed more than $130 just to get it towed to the nearest gas station. every time we called the cops they would take over 30 mins just to arrive and then they were never really much help. At the end we finally got a police to drive one of my friends to the nearest gas station so she can purchase a gallon of gas then he assisted her as she put the gas in the car. We ended up leaving the highway at 5 in the morning. We were stuck in a cold heat less car for 2 and a half hour. From now on i will avoid getting stuck in a cold car in the middle of the high way by just not going clubbing.